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Back on Finland again! Estonia was fun, except there was too hot to me. I'm used to +20 Celsius degrees, but there was almost thirty or twenty-five. I had to drink all the time, but I don't mind. I had Pepsi, so everything was almost perfect. :D I bought a professional hair straightener (cost about fifty euros and I haven't seen more stylish straightener ever), hair brush (six euros), ecohairspray (10,20), mineral makeup powder (cost 35, but really worth it), face cleaning thing, totally worth for it's price, 45 euros. And from bus trip I bought Tommy Tabermann's book Veren sokeri (Boold sugar in english, collection of his poems) and it cost something about six euros. Was worth it, totally. I love Tabermann's poems, they're a bit erotic sometimes, but there is some hidden  wisdoms about love and life. And marriage. Very good poet.

I want to be a poet someday. Actually I just want to be writer. But I have writer's block on all the time! I just can't write normally anymore, it goes and comes with inspiration. I can write only poems at the moment, nothing more. I want to write a book, and I have everything ready. I have planned the plot, the characters, everything. Only thing that's missing is the text. But I can't write it. Maybe because I planned it too much...

7.14.2012 Time 8:44:00 pm , 0 Comments

Excited feeling and complicated things...

Oh, my budget for Estonia is 113 euros and 55 cents, not bad. It's actually 133 euros and 55 cents, but I put aside 20 euros, because of course I'll have to eat. :'D I'm so excited! I'm not waiting this trip as much as last year, but I'm so grateful to go. My family doesn't have enough money to buy a trips abroad, but last year my godfather paid my trip to Estonia, and this time my mom and godfather paid it together. I love my family, even though times aren't good, they try to give me a chance to see the world. I'm the only child, so my mom doesn't let me to an exchange student or language trip (but I understand it, because we can't afford it) because she is so afraid that I'm going to die. Even more when I was diagnosed epilepsy, but I haven't had seizures for ages.

Tomorrow! TOMORROW WE GO! I'm so excited! And I just can't hide it! (I know, I know, musical seizures aren't so great in the internet...) Only minus is, that we have to sit in a bus with full of people. But I planned to take my computer with me, and a few books. I have downloaded  a few movies, and maybe I write a little. I have three books with me, Philip Roth: The Ghost WriterErnest Hemingway: The sun also rises and Ernest Hemingway: The Old Man and the Sea. Fourteen hours in a bus may fly within wings with these golden ones♥ Only one which is missing, is some book from Stephen King or Stephen Hawking. Both are masters, the first is the master of writing and the second one is the master of science.

I admire both, they're great. But there is something I want to confess to you. I thought that I was agnostic, but before I watched Thor, I started thinking about it. The more I think about it, the more sense it makes to me. I think I finally found my religion, and it's norse mythology.With Thor, Odin, Baldur, Frigga and many others. Last time when my mother was afraid of thunder, I tried to comfort her:
"It's only Thor. He's angry or he is practicing. There's nothing to be afraid, he's opening Bifrost soon, then you can calm down. Maybe he visits here or Alfheim"

For some reason, she didn't believe me... Maybe it's because she's evangelical lutheran. My religion has always been complicated, because I don't believe in christian God, nor Allah or any else God. I only believed, that everyone's religion is true. I still believe in Narnia and Aslan, but I believe norse gods too. And I meditate, concentrate to my chakras and everything like that. Because I believe that it makes me a better person. It is too complicated to be told everyone, and they would laugh at me. Say, that I've read too much. That I've gone mad. *Sigh*

But now, here's one song, which makes helps me meditate. And it helps me to sleep, if I listen to it while I'm in bed. I hope that you enjoy it too'! :)

7.10.2012 Time 1:46:00 pm , 0 Comments

The very first post

Hello! :D So, this is my brand new blog and a very first post. Oh my, I got to fight with this layout for ages! I found a nice layout, tried it and found it ugly or more or less impractical. Then I found absolutely perfect layout, but I couldn't download it because the site was so complicated. Then I found this and one more girly, but I found this more comfortable. It kind of suits me, because I'm not very positive person, I'm pessimist and a Batman fan. Actually Joker fan, I don't like Batman as a superhero, but Bruce Wayne is a nice guy. Bad boys are more attractive in my opinion, but that's not all. One of my fictional crushes is Fred Weasley, totally not a bad guy. But it's a fact, that every villain is hero in his own mind. (And this was said by Tom Hiddleston, who's voice is pure voice porn.)

But yay, I'm going to Estonia next week! :D New shoes new shoes I WANNA NEW SHOES. Yep. I loooove shoes, almost as much as I love books. (And still I have only three pairs of high heels, and ones I don't even use, because they make my feet look huge.) My favourite shoe brand is Duffy, I love those shoes. I have one pair of Duffy's, and they make my feet look small and pretty, and I can wear three sizes less than usually!

Absolutely gorgeous, aren't they? Especially those brown ones. Stylish, but not too catwalk-like. What do you think?

7.07.2012 Time 1:57:00 pm , 0 Comments